Abd. Rahim

Truly He is the One whom grant us feelings such of happiness and sadness in our hearts
But He is also the One whom bestowed us with mind to think
The mind is placed above the heart in our body resembles the power of mind over heart
However the mind cannot function without the heart thus giving it a priority to take care of the heart
With this, He has also created us as pure beings as we were born
Free from darkness and evil
Therefor we have to follow what our heart desires
BUT guided with our mind
To react without thinking is truly not how a Muslim nor Mu'min should behave
one must have knowledge of one possible actions before proceeding with what one wants
Indeed He is Ar-Rahim
He is the One who loves us even before we were born
He is the One who listen to us even when we neglect Him
He is the One who gave us life even when we don't deserve it
He is the One god that we should love and obey
He is the only One
He is Allah

I wrote this out of the feelings I get when a very dear friend send me a text to apologize.
Though he is not a Muslim, but Allah manage to make me remember Him trough him.
Subhanallah.
Please pray for the ease of my friend in becoming a Muslim and Mu'min insyaAllah. 

One month and eight days

Assalamualaikum w.b.t.

It has been so long since I posted anything here. Gosh, I miss this "place". However, this is not why I post this entry. Now let us get to the point.

Today, it has been a month and eight days since I last saw him. Yes. A very close friend of mine. Yes. Him. There have never been a day pass by that I don't think of him. I wondered about his well being. I wondered about his life. I also wondered if he think of me just like how I think of him. Every second of my life, I restraint myself from going to that place where he work. I deleted all the numbers that can connect me to him just to make sure he gets what he wants

One month and eight days

Assalamualaikum w.b.t.

It has been so long since I posted anything here. Gosh, I miss this "place". However, this is not why I post this entry. Now let us get to the point.

Today, it has been a month and eight days since I last saw him. Yes. A very close friend of mine. Yes. Him. There have never been a day pass by that I don't think of him. I wondered about his well being. I wondered about his life. I also wondered if he think of me just like how I think of him. Every second of my life, I restraint myself from going to that place where he work. I deleted all the numbers that can connect me to him just to make sure he gets what he wants

so close but so far away

knowing that i will...

knowing that you will...

the leaves in my heart becomes drier by the second

my heart used to bloom

with such colors that it's more colorful than a rainbow

more beautiful than a butterfly

more enchanting than a phoenix

but no more.

looking at you...

i feel sad

disappointed

and a glimpse of hatred...

for you had shown me how close you are to my heart

yet how far you are from me

-ROZEN VALENTINE-

Mencari Cahaya: tika aku telah melukakan dia.....

Maaf...

Di atas perbuatanku...

Memalukan mu...

Melukakan mu...

dan mungkin...

menghinamu...

Maaf...

aku tidak berniat begitu...

mungkin aku tidak sedar akan perbuatanku...

yang menconteng arang di muka kamu...

Lantas kamu merasa dihina dan terhina...

dan kamu menyifatkan perbuatanku sebagai menghancurkan dinding yang telah kamu bina...

Maaf...

aku bodoh...

telah melakukan sedemikian rupa...

lantas melonjak rasa hampa...

menghancurkan titian persahabatan yang sedang dibina...

dan aku tahu...kamu sememangnya tidak mahu lagi...

Maaf...

aku tidak pandai bermadah...

apatah lagi memujuk...

juga tidak mampu membait kata2 manis untuk kamu...

namun aku hanya mampu berkata...

setulus hatiku aku memohon kamu menggenggam jari-jemariku yang bersusun sepuluh..

memohon kemaafan...

mengharapkan kamu menerima...

Maaf...

hatiku sedang lemah...

sedang sakit...

kerana itu mudah terasa...

walaupun bukan salah kamu...

Maaf...

aku mengundur diri buat sementara...

mungkin agak terasa dengan kata-kata mu..

tapi apa hak yang aku ada...

selagi kamu belum nyatakan kamu memaafkan ku...

aku tidak akan tenang...

Dan aku tau...

hatimu juga tidak tenang...

Kerana perbuatan ku...

aku harap kau tahu...

betapa menyesalnya aku...

Maaf...
Di atas perbuatanku...
Memalukan mu...
Melukakan mu...
dan mungkin...
menghinamu...

Why do I say no...?

In this post,I would like to tell you reasons to say no to a proposal to be a wife or girlfriend...enjoy....n_n

I didn't say no to a guy for no reason right?

loving someone new?? hmm...

Can I do that?? 

Is it possible? 

Will I succeed??

But..I miss you..

Still..I've promised...

Hey you...Don't tell anyone...but

I love you...

Just something that I've been wanting to say...

      This is what I want to say to the person who had been with me for 3 years-not any more.

Dulu...kite start as friends...saya ingat lagi mase kite mule-mule kenal,awak dah ade awek.
Saya x kesah pn...sbb saye nak kawan jer...tiap kali kite msg,awak wat saye macam awek awak je.
Awak suruh saye jgn kasar sangat,awak nak dengar saye cakap lembut2...jgn gune aku kau...
Chow pn xley...saya duduk asrama..xley bawak HP..so awak pn rase sunyi walaupun awak dah ade awek..
tiap2 kli awak ade masalah dengan awek awak,awak gtwu sy...sy jd tmpt awak bergantung..satu ari,awak pts dgn awek awak..awak sdeyh sangat..sy risau sangat kat awak. ..awak jatuh aty kat sy..walaupn sy panas baran..awak suke jugak..sy igt awak mnx sy jadi awek awak mse hari raye kedue tahun 2006..sy serba salah sbb sy xnk kapel..tp sy terime jugak...sy pk,ape salahnye mencube....tp sy selalu col awak...tanye kabar...susah taw...bkn sye sorg je nak gune public phone tu...ramai lagi bdak2 len yang nak gune phone tu..tp..awak xpenah pk sy usehe nak b'ckp dgn awak...sy pun dah malas nak tulis sbb nnti wat skt ati....tapi..terima kasih sbb jage sy tige thn...semoge awak bahagie hingga ke anak cucu dgn die...n_n

Aku telah membuat keputusan..my heart is missing.

Lately,bloog aku nie aku tulis dalam bahase melayu jer...sebab..entah la...hmm...
Dalam kesedihan hati yang merosakkan segala tumpuan yang cuba aku berikan pada hidup yang serba fana ini,aku telah membuat satu keputusan yang akan mengubah masa depan aku...

I'm moving on...funny that I've rehearsed the line "you don't have to be with me anymore" for so many times. I wanted to say "I don't love you anymore" so that you will feel better but I can't lie. I can't stop myself from crying when I said that because it hurts a lot. I know I've promised I'll try looking for somebody that I will love. In your words-give myself another chance-but it is not that easy. It is never easy. I can try caring for another guy but I know I can never love another. I'll try,just like I've promised you. But there's no assurance that it will succeed.

Despite all that, I whole heartedly(if that is even a word) pray that you will find your happiness and the one that you love-even though that person is not me.ever. I love you so much that I want you to be happy. And if you're not happy with me then I'd rather let you go. I know you will think I'm so pathetic for doing this but who cares. I only have 1 love. And you took it cruelly and not give it back. I'm tired. I had to much pain already that if you cause more of it,it doesn't make any difference.



I've realized that I had forgotten that I have to love Him more than I love you. I'm a weak slave that needs more training at heart which is going to be problem because it is missing. My heart....is missing...Still...I have no choice...I chose to let you go...so I had to live with the consequences...I'm learning to accept that I had to let you go.

Perginya hati yang lara...

Angin malam bagai meniup lembut api yang membakar hati yang kesedihan dihimpit pilu. Titisan air mata seakan berlumba-lumba menuruni lekuk pipiku yang sedia basah. Gugusan bintang dilangit seakan memahami kesyahduan hati ini yang menjerit resah dan meminta untuk diselamatkan. Terduduk aku disudut ruang gelap di atas bumbung tempat aku meluahkan kegembiraan satu ketika dulu. Ya Allah, hanya Engkau yang mengetahui betapa hancurnya hati ini akibat bahana si dia. Aku tidak sanggup lagi menghadapi kesedihan ini. Hanya Engkau tempat aku menggantung harapan ya Allah. Kau bantulah hambaMu yang serba lemah dan tidak sempurna ini dalam menghadapi liku-liku hari yang mendatang dengan hati ini yang sudah tidak mampu menyayangi yang lain. Kau berilah aku kekuatan untuk terus setia dan bersabar. Ya Allah,you are my only hope and my only God. If these are Your obstacles for me,then I accept it with open arms. I know that I can always count on You. So ya Allah, guide me to the right path and don't You let me go astray after you gave me guidance. Amen.

Antara shabat dan kekasih...between a friend and a lover...

This is a short story of how a friends heart is crushed by her own best friend...

Amin have been friends with a girl,nawi for a long time...they are practically siblings...

Nawi of course in fact care a lot about Amin...

Amin got a girlfriend named Sue...

They had their own series of fight and such that made Nawi worried sick bout this Amin dude...

One day...

Ni la citernye...A sweet but awkward thing that he did...n_n

Warning!Post ini memerlukan anda untuk berfikiran terbuka dan menyedari hakikat yang ITU MMG FITRAH...Yang penting kite amik ape yang baek jadikan teladan...kan3...so..enjoy....n_n

.There are lots of people who
always talked about how the guy of their dream and how a guy should really be like and etc...well...this is my friend...named Valentine...Even thought he is not the type of guy everyone talk about,he is perfect just the way he is...

Ingatkan don't wanna post...RASE BENGANG AND SAKIT ATY AND MENYAMPAH AND ETC!!!

RASE BENGANG AND SAKIT ATY AND MENYAMPAH AND ETC!!!

these past few days rase cm down and moody gile...UPSET GILER!!

I hate feeling this way but I already did...

I thought of studying but the fact of the study itself makes me mad coz it reminds me of the other person who is studying...

and to think that
I don't wanna disturb Mr. Valentine b'coz he was having exams...

Trying not to be clingy and everything since he said he don't have a heart...

Well Mr. If you don't have a heart, how come you have a crush??? haa???

That means you actually have a heart...

"I don't have a heart" la sangat kan....

I malas nak condemn ke, ape ke,nnti kate I clingy and mengongkong pulak..

And the "I need my space" pn he will ckp...

I had to write this for the sake of not getting mad...

I malas nak Ckp kat him dah...

Dude,

Apology Sonnet

Sweat drips in my eyes and the cry of lust we scream,

Tonight thee art everything to me,

No more as I wake from
this perfect dream,

But now I must think only of myself not thee.

Our hearts are tight but not us

Happy!!

YeaH! 

something happened yesterday!!! 

And it makes me feel so
happy and relieved! 

Gonna tell about it later k!! 

Wait for my post! 

heee~

Together...

Arabic Speaking test!!

Arab

Arabic speaking test is coming up for me and I am currently studying Arab with a friend who's studying Sociology. Fuhh! Arabic is tiring! Like seriously..!! the jumlah fe'liah and jumlah ismiah and fe'el mudari' and fe'el madi and muzakkar and mua'nnas and
jamak and mufrad and and etc. huh! look! So many of them...and this is just the basic..still,I would say it is easier than English. The only reason why we feel it is difficult is because we didn't learn it since we're little.

Back to my main point.This little

Who's giving up??

That girl resembles me while the guy resembles him. Hmm... Chained with no key to open the lock. Stuck with each other.

Chained together

I remember there was this one time when he text me telling that we should live our life without each other for a while(come to think about it
,he said that twice already). Then, in the same message, he wrote

"PS: I'm sorry i hurt ur feelings n I'm sorry 4 bein so selfish n i'm sorry 4 being such a jerk.. And I'll still keep to my word so

I NEED YOU...

I don't wanna cry

Come on dude! why?! I know that I shouldn't be mad...but I am..I am like FREAKING MAD!!!!!! not to forget UPSET! You just canceled our so-called meeting up! And when my friend called you(which I first thought she was bluffing) and tell you how upset I am, you didn't even
ask me why am I so upset...you just said that I shouldn't be upset. Come on man.

How could you

Dude...of course there's at least a reason for me to be that upset. Plus-when