Abd. Rahim

Truly He is the One whom grant us feelings such of happiness and sadness in our hearts
But He is also the One whom bestowed us with mind to think
The mind is placed above the heart in our body resembles the power of mind over heart
However the mind cannot function without the heart thus giving it a priority to take care of the heart
With this, He has also created us as pure beings as we were born
Free from darkness and evil
Therefor we have to follow what our heart desires
BUT guided with our mind
To react without thinking is truly not how a Muslim nor Mu'min should behave
one must have knowledge of one possible actions before proceeding with what one wants
Indeed He is Ar-Rahim
He is the One who loves us even before we were born
He is the One who listen to us even when we neglect Him
He is the One who gave us life even when we don't deserve it
He is the One god that we should love and obey
He is the only One
He is Allah

I wrote this out of the feelings I get when a very dear friend send me a text to apologize.
Though he is not a Muslim, but Allah manage to make me remember Him trough him.
Subhanallah.
Please pray for the ease of my friend in becoming a Muslim and Mu'min insyaAllah. 

so close but so far away

knowing that i will...

knowing that you will...

the leaves in my heart becomes drier by the second

my heart used to bloom

with such colors that it's more colorful than a rainbow

more beautiful than a butterfly

more enchanting than a phoenix

but no more.

looking at you...

i feel sad

disappointed

and a glimpse of hatred...

for you had shown me how close you are to my heart

yet how far you are from me

-ROZEN VALENTINE-

Counting down the days

Complete silence...

full of...Agony?

hurt

and disappointment?

Watching time pass by,

Imagining what could happen,

how to straighten?

As the heart throb in silence
as the mind blow seeking ignorance
and it all ends with this...
THIS

-Rozen Valentine-

Mencari Cahaya: tika aku telah melukakan dia.....

Maaf...

Di atas perbuatanku...

Memalukan mu...

Melukakan mu...

dan mungkin...

menghinamu...

Maaf...

aku tidak berniat begitu...

mungkin aku tidak sedar akan perbuatanku...

yang menconteng arang di muka kamu...

Lantas kamu merasa dihina dan terhina...

dan kamu menyifatkan perbuatanku sebagai menghancurkan dinding yang telah kamu bina...

Maaf...

aku bodoh...

telah melakukan sedemikian rupa...

lantas melonjak rasa hampa...

menghancurkan titian persahabatan yang sedang dibina...

dan aku tahu...kamu sememangnya tidak mahu lagi...

Maaf...

aku tidak pandai bermadah...

apatah lagi memujuk...

juga tidak mampu membait kata2 manis untuk kamu...

namun aku hanya mampu berkata...

setulus hatiku aku memohon kamu menggenggam jari-jemariku yang bersusun sepuluh..

memohon kemaafan...

mengharapkan kamu menerima...

Maaf...

hatiku sedang lemah...

sedang sakit...

kerana itu mudah terasa...

walaupun bukan salah kamu...

Maaf...

aku mengundur diri buat sementara...

mungkin agak terasa dengan kata-kata mu..

tapi apa hak yang aku ada...

selagi kamu belum nyatakan kamu memaafkan ku...

aku tidak akan tenang...

Dan aku tau...

hatimu juga tidak tenang...

Kerana perbuatan ku...

aku harap kau tahu...

betapa menyesalnya aku...

Maaf...
Di atas perbuatanku...
Memalukan mu...
Melukakan mu...
dan mungkin...
menghinamu...

Apology Sonnet

Sweat drips in my eyes and the cry of lust we scream,

Tonight thee art everything to me,

No more as I wake from
this perfect dream,

But now I must think only of myself not thee.

Our hearts are tight but not us