I learn to live half a life...now you want me one more time..

I know how it feels like to finally feel like you are moving on...

Even thought deep in your heart,you have that small,tiny hope that that person will come back and say that he regrets walking away....

I know the pain that you have to go trough when that person that you love so much-that person that you care about so much and thought that he cared too-turns out were lying about loving you  all along...

I know the suffering that you felt every night....

when you cried alone...

in the dark while your friends are sleeping...
because you don't want them to see you in such pain and agony..
Because you don't want them to worry..
Because you want them to know that if you are okay,then if they are facing the same thing next time,they'll be okay too...


I know the hardship that you went trough,just to put a smile on your face..
so that others would smile...
while your heart is bleeding so hard..


I know that feeling that you get,when you see others look so happy with their partners...
and wishing you are like that too....


Most importantly...
I know how it feels like when you are halfway of getting use to not having him around...
Then suddenly he came back...
And said...
He wants you back...
And how you wish he would say that before he broke your heart...
And how you wish he didn't say it anymore....
I know how it feels like..to loose..
Yes...
I know...

Hey! nak nangis?? need to burst out with tears?

Kiwi baru menagis nie..huh! siyez! baru! haha! Kenape? nak tau kenape??? sebab kiwi baru lepas bace satu blog membe kiwi nie...pergh...blog die.....sedeyh!!!! SEDEYH GILE GABAN!

SIYEZ! cerite die banyak pasal kisah cinta yang xdapat happy ending..

elok jugak kn? untuk ingatkan kite xsemua yang kite plan leyh jadi...and nak jadikan iktibar...

boleyh jugak kite doakan orang dalam kisah2 tu happy klan??

sebab cite die mostly true story...

korang nak link??? haha...jap...ummm..........

nak bagi ke x ea?...hehe..

xbagi nanti orang rugi...xdapat bace...

cerite sedeyh...yela..korang asyik bace cerite kiwi jer kan? nanti boring pulak...

haha....lagi pun..kiwi xdapat la nak tulis story lately...sebab mood yang xbape betol..

nanti kiwi cerite kat korang ea...

yang penting kiwi nak share blog nie dengan korang..hehe...

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Why do I say no...?

In this post,I would like to tell you reasons to say no to a proposal to be a wife or girlfriend...enjoy....n_n

I didn't say no to a guy for no reason right?

loving someone new?? hmm...

Can I do that?? 

Is it possible? 

Will I succeed??

But..I miss you..

Still..I've promised...

Hey you...Don't tell anyone...but

I love you...

Just something that I've been wanting to say...

      This is what I want to say to the person who had been with me for 3 years-not any more.

Dulu...kite start as friends...saya ingat lagi mase kite mule-mule kenal,awak dah ade awek.
Saya x kesah pn...sbb saye nak kawan jer...tiap kali kite msg,awak wat saye macam awek awak je.
Awak suruh saye jgn kasar sangat,awak nak dengar saye cakap lembut2...jgn gune aku kau...
Chow pn xley...saya duduk asrama..xley bawak HP..so awak pn rase sunyi walaupun awak dah ade awek..
tiap2 kli awak ade masalah dengan awek awak,awak gtwu sy...sy jd tmpt awak bergantung..satu ari,awak pts dgn awek awak..awak sdeyh sangat..sy risau sangat kat awak. ..awak jatuh aty kat sy..walaupn sy panas baran..awak suke jugak..sy igt awak mnx sy jadi awek awak mse hari raye kedue tahun 2006..sy serba salah sbb sy xnk kapel..tp sy terime jugak...sy pk,ape salahnye mencube....tp sy selalu col awak...tanye kabar...susah taw...bkn sye sorg je nak gune public phone tu...ramai lagi bdak2 len yang nak gune phone tu..tp..awak xpenah pk sy usehe nak b'ckp dgn awak...sy pun dah malas nak tulis sbb nnti wat skt ati....tapi..terima kasih sbb jage sy tige thn...semoge awak bahagie hingga ke anak cucu dgn die...n_n

Aku telah membuat keputusan..my heart is missing.

Lately,bloog aku nie aku tulis dalam bahase melayu jer...sebab..entah la...hmm...
Dalam kesedihan hati yang merosakkan segala tumpuan yang cuba aku berikan pada hidup yang serba fana ini,aku telah membuat satu keputusan yang akan mengubah masa depan aku...

I'm moving on...funny that I've rehearsed the line "you don't have to be with me anymore" for so many times. I wanted to say "I don't love you anymore" so that you will feel better but I can't lie. I can't stop myself from crying when I said that because it hurts a lot. I know I've promised I'll try looking for somebody that I will love. In your words-give myself another chance-but it is not that easy. It is never easy. I can try caring for another guy but I know I can never love another. I'll try,just like I've promised you. But there's no assurance that it will succeed.

Despite all that, I whole heartedly(if that is even a word) pray that you will find your happiness and the one that you love-even though that person is not me.ever. I love you so much that I want you to be happy. And if you're not happy with me then I'd rather let you go. I know you will think I'm so pathetic for doing this but who cares. I only have 1 love. And you took it cruelly and not give it back. I'm tired. I had to much pain already that if you cause more of it,it doesn't make any difference.



I've realized that I had forgotten that I have to love Him more than I love you. I'm a weak slave that needs more training at heart which is going to be problem because it is missing. My heart....is missing...Still...I have no choice...I chose to let you go...so I had to live with the consequences...I'm learning to accept that I had to let you go.