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I know it has been a while since I posted anything here. I am sorry for that. Let's get down to what I want to talk about here.

There's a girl who gained interest in a few people. One of them moved far far away across the world and promised to come back, while the other is in Malaysia, with her. Both of this people are very similar. They are both very funny, caring, fun to be around. extremely jealous type and most of it all, they are both very very hard to be with. See, this girl loves A, who's half across the world away from her. But at the same time, B, is trying to win her heart. And there is C, who kept an eye on her and loved her dearly for as long as he remembered.

When C proposed to her, she took some time to think about it and decided no because she fell madly in love with A and is going to make it work. C was devastated but he stick around anyways because deep in his guts, he knows he can win her heart. Life goes on and she love the love that she has with A. A complements her in every way that she could think of. She is a very soft loud person but prefers someone to talk to her nicely instead of yelling and scolding. Those days are over for her. She needs someone calm and collected. Someone who understands her soft vulnerable side - A is the perfect one for her. She might be too in love to realise that A is having a hard time being straight forward which is one of the quality that she seeks the most. She would rather someone say the truth and hurt her than deceive her with lies for temporary happiness. But she always say there is always a better way of saying things...always. So when you take that two statements and put it together, it's saying honesty with empathy is the best policy. That's all there is.

Abd. Rahim

Truly He is the One whom grant us feelings such of happiness and sadness in our hearts
But He is also the One whom bestowed us with mind to think
The mind is placed above the heart in our body resembles the power of mind over heart
However the mind cannot function without the heart thus giving it a priority to take care of the heart
With this, He has also created us as pure beings as we were born
Free from darkness and evil
Therefor we have to follow what our heart desires
BUT guided with our mind
To react without thinking is truly not how a Muslim nor Mu'min should behave
one must have knowledge of one possible actions before proceeding with what one wants
Indeed He is Ar-Rahim
He is the One who loves us even before we were born
He is the One who listen to us even when we neglect Him
He is the One who gave us life even when we don't deserve it
He is the One god that we should love and obey
He is the only One
He is Allah

I wrote this out of the feelings I get when a very dear friend send me a text to apologize.
Though he is not a Muslim, but Allah manage to make me remember Him trough him.
Subhanallah.
Please pray for the ease of my friend in becoming a Muslim and Mu'min insyaAllah. 

One month and eight days

Assalamualaikum w.b.t.

It has been so long since I posted anything here. Gosh, I miss this "place". However, this is not why I post this entry. Now let us get to the point.

Today, it has been a month and eight days since I last saw him. Yes. A very close friend of mine. Yes. Him. There have never been a day pass by that I don't think of him. I wondered about his well being. I wondered about his life. I also wondered if he think of me just like how I think of him. Every second of my life, I restraint myself from going to that place where he work. I deleted all the numbers that can connect me to him just to make sure he gets what he wants

One month and eight days

Assalamualaikum w.b.t.

It has been so long since I posted anything here. Gosh, I miss this "place". However, this is not why I post this entry. Now let us get to the point.

Today, it has been a month and eight days since I last saw him. Yes. A very close friend of mine. Yes. Him. There have never been a day pass by that I don't think of him. I wondered about his well being. I wondered about his life. I also wondered if he think of me just like how I think of him. Every second of my life, I restraint myself from going to that place where he work. I deleted all the numbers that can connect me to him just to make sure he gets what he wants

To my future husband

My house,

The state I live in,

The country I am living in.

September 29th 2012

Assalamualaikum w.b.t.

     Dear future husband,
I hope you are in great health and continue having a great time as the slave of Allah. Don't worry about me. I am just fine, thank you. The reason I wrote this letter to you is because I want to tell you that I am going to be your future wife and I hope you can and will bear with me.

     Firstly, congratulations for being my husband. Though it is not something that is worth congratulating.  Next, I don't love you.

No point of posting...

Every time I felt sad and in grief..I always end up wanting to write a post...then at last...I end up not finishing it and not posting it..because well..I don't feel the point of posting it...If people really want to know me, talk to me. Tell me. And what I feel is not something that I should tell every one. I just du'a for something from Allah today while I cried. Prayed hard that Allah will take away my feelings towards other people than my family and Muhammad s.a.w.